Friday, 12 January 2018

In the action

He has taken the moments when I tell him I won't do something as a signal of me being stressed out of my sleep-deprived mind.
Because apparently, it is, like in actuality. 

He knows I'll do it, no matter what I claim in the stressed out moment and of course he's right because there is no way I can *not* do it, how we roll. 

But me telling him I can't/won't is like.....letting off steam? I don't know, I've only just realized that this happens. Its a way for him to come in, to ease the stress? 

I do now this is part of learning how to manage all the stuffs. 
And that last year, he would have taken offence to it/been hurt by me telling him I wasn't going to do something.

Its helpful, to realize this and its helpful in action but it bothers me at the same time.

(and yes I edited for title)

8 comments:

  1. Hi Bleue, helpful yet bothersome at the same time, yep I get it. But it is overall good yes? Especially that he no longer takes offence.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Good overall, yes, we will go with that :-)

      Helpful that He doesn't take offence because I never did to intentionally go against him.

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  2. At least you now recognize it for what it is! All about communication.

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    1. Hi Lea,

      Yes that's true! But I'm still grappling with what it means. Absolutely.

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  3. i think it's quite amazing that it can take two people some time to figure out what the other one is really saying / feeling / thinking even tho we sometimes don't articulate it clearly. and when they figure it out it just feels so satisfying.

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  4. I can't tell you how many times I have said to Barney, " I am NOT going to do that!" . His response is always the same, " You say that now, but we both know you are going to".." NO I AM NOT! NOT THIS TIME!!!"....then later she does. Sigh.

    Well I guess in some ways it is a positive that he sees and knows me better than I do myself in my crazed, emotional state?

    Lol
    willie

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    1. That's the thing, i often wonder how sometimes BIKSS KNOWS what i'm going to think/do/say before *I* do, and i only realise it AFTERwards that he knew way before I did. almost like magic!

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  5. *sigh* stress and/or lack of sleep ruins everything.

    Okay, maybe not everything, but you know what I mean. :)

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